Few days ago, I was inspired to write a blog post in my sleep. So I instantly woke up, worshiped and pulled out my laptop to begin writing. The blog post was titled “Moving to a strange land at 16”. I wrote for three hours straight and only entertained one pee break. I wrote from my heart and I had traveled back in time to pull so much great stuff out. When I finally stopped, I found out I had penned down 3 pages of good stuff. So I saved the document (at least I thought I did) with a sense of accomplishment and shut down.
To my biggest shock, when I switched my laptop back on, I couldn’t find the document anymore. I quickly did a search, pressed everything I could, checked recycle bin…Nothing! By then I had started to shake, more like trembling, “No, it can’t be that I had lost 3 hours’ of writing”, I said to myself with my mouth trembling…
It wasn’t even much of the time that I had spent that mattered, it was the fact that I could never pull out that content from my mind the way that I did that morning, contents like that flows naturally under inspiration… It was so good that it could pass for a chapter in my upcoming memoir. To say I was pained is an understatement, devastated may be a more appropriate way to put it.
I began to pace back and forth, tears were beginning to roll down my cheeks( I cry a lot by the way), I blamed myself and when I got tired of blaming myself, I thought of shifting the blame to God. If you think my reactions were extreme, try writing a book first and then try losing even just a paragraph😲…Meanwhile, this event happened on the day that was supposed to be my most productive day because I had taken a 24 hours sabbatical from phone communications and social media to relax and just self-reflect. It was supposed to be a day for Wins! Imagine my surprise when I found out I was losing instead.
Anyway I digress, eventually, I tried to open my mouth to actually blame God for not prompting me to be smarter about saving my work… But all I could bring myself to say was “God, Thank you”. I know, I was surprised too, but I kept repeating that phrase again and again… I said things like “I’m frustrated but I thank you, I’m so mad right now but I am grateful”. I honestly only said these words because we were told in church that “in everything, give thanks” not that I was conscious of a specific reason for thanking God at the time.
However, something began to take place, suddenly the frustrations began to disappear, my tears started drying up and I felt light pretty soon! I told myself “I might have lost but something good will come out of this”. Truth be told, I wasn’t convinced of that statement myself, I just said it to relieve myself of the pain. No matter how hard I tried that afternoon, I couldn’t bring myself to see the “good” that will come from losing that content.
The following day, I picked up the book “What I know for sure” from where I last stopped & the topic “Gratitude” was starring right at me. Here is the line that sort of triggered this post….
Reading this gave me what Oprah calls an A-HA moment. “A-HA, so this is why I could easily transition from frustration to peace the other day”, I thought. And this was just because I practiced the art of “Gratitude”.
What is more profound is being able to transform what had seemed like an unfortunate event to this revealing blog post. It takes me back to when I said “I know I might have lost but something good will come out of this” without even believing it that afternoon. This reminded me of the words of Paul Coelho from “Brida” that says…
Looking back, I would have said those words with more faith believing that my words have powers to manifest that which I say. And maybe, just maybe someday I might get a chance to rewrite that story.
What I know for sure is that practicing Gratitude really shifts our vibrations from the Negative to the Positive in an instant. Gratitude opens our eyes to see a rainbow in the midst of a storm.
I plan to start a daily “Gratitude journal” to pen down the things that I am grateful for each day. I hope you too can find reasons however small or big to be grateful in your everyday life!
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Till next time on the Small Town Girl Blog.
Peace and Love,